|I was not thrilled with these, but looking back at them they are better than I thought.|
I have not been able to blog for about a week now really. I was busy doing a desert table for a friend of mine. I had taken three days off of my full time job and had my mom and sister help. It was crazy! So I am not back on a schedule yet at all. I just want to lay in bed and be alone. I am feeling really low, and I don't know how to deal with it really.
Not a great way to start a post, but it's how I am feeling. I feel really sad and alone, and I don't know why. Is it the fact I feel the weight of being a mom and knowing I am not doing a really good job of it? Is it because I have gained weight and went through so much to lose it in the first place? Is it just that I want to sit and cry a lot of the time, but I just cannot? I don't know. I just know my depression is hitting me harder right now, and I want to pretend like it's not. I want to feel like nothing is wrong and life is perfect. But it just isn't.
I don't know how I can complain so much when I am so lucky, I just feel wrong, and I hate feeling this way. So I think I may need to take a few weeks to find me and try to get my happy back. Not sure I will be able to, but if I keep at it the way I have been, I will start to hate life and I don't want that.
So I figured I would share a few pictures here of the cute cake pops I did for my Hubby's best friend and his new wife. Then I think I will just try to take it a bit easy. If I can post I will, I have a few things I have done in the last few weeks, then I hope to be back at it again in a month or so. Maybe I just need a break, a little time to just be.
So sorry for the downer post, but I am struggling and I think I need to put my time in for the really important things, my son and Hubby. And me, I sort of count too, although I don't feel like it really matters right now. So please stay tuned I bet I will be back at it in a few weeks, and as I said I have a few things ready to post so I won't be totally gone. I will try to keep up on my blog reading at least, that helps me to feel some joy.
|The bride had wanted pink and white and cream coloured chocolate. I screwed up many pounds of it, so did milk with lot of sprinkles, she seemed just as happy. Or she was just happy the wedding was over, who knows really.|
|She is a graphic artist so she designed all the label stickers it was so easy to use them.|
|They got married right here, and had their first dance on the steps, it was so sweet.|